It’s time for the yearly recap! For many, 2016 wasn’t a great year. While it certainly wasn’t an easy year, I’d say that for me, 2016 was a good year.
I got engaged and married! But I really just want to talk about my writing in 2016.
I worked on…
One short story.
It wasn’t because I didn’t have a lot of time (I didn’t) and it wasn’t because I didn’t want to write (I did).
But… growing up a writer, I always felt a little ahead of the game. My writing friends would come to me for advice. I’d see my book in a bookstore, I’d see it on Amazon. I got (small) royalties . . . and it was great.
But now? Now I’m often seized by a sense of crippling self-doubt. I look back at the Keepers of Elenath and I see a lot of issues, a lot of places where I’ve grown and changed and left behind a sad book written by a 14-16 year old who had a lot to learn. (Wow, guys. It’s been 10 years since I was that age)
Now, I can’t seem to pick up a pen or sit down at my computer screen without thinking: This is harder than it used to be. This story is flawed. I can’t do this.
All my stories are flawed. I’ve started four stories since the Keeper’s sequel (never to be published, I’m afraid) and they all sit unfinished, tangled in a web made of their own words, with plot holes shot through them so they have bled out and died all between my blinking cursor and the words ‘the end’.
I’ve been discouraged. Not just in 2016- I’ve been discouraged about writing for years. And this year, I just stopped. I’ve been writing for 18 years. And I just . . . stopped. I quit. Not in so many words, because the words ‘I quit’ were too final. But for the first time since I was 7, I had no current work in progress.
But my husband and my sister in law wouldn’t let discouragement and fear stop me. My husband suggested I write a short story- from an image he chose from Pinterest. He’d write one too, and we’d share. It would be fun, he said. And it was.
My short story ‘The Life of Mirrors’ or as it’s been heretofore named ‘Mirror Mirror’ has been the first thing I’ve finished in a very long time. I’ll try to post it soon, but I’ve sent it in for a submission to a fantasy/ scifi ezine. So we’ll see. ^_^
Don’t give in to your discouragement. I face it every day. But don’t give in like I did.
I’m also working on a new novel idea, one that I won’t divulge yet… but I’m excited. For the first time in SOOO long. I can’t wait to bring it to a point where I can share it with you.
That’s all for now.